Our ladies Bible study is set to tackle the book of James starting tomorrow. I've spent the past few weeks in my devotions reading and re-reading the letter in order to be ready to actually speak up in our weekly sessions (if my innate shyness doesn't paralyze me...).
I feel like all my current struggles pop up in the this letter: controlling the tongue, anger, favoritism, being double-minded. And then there's the biggie, the one James is so well-known for: the issue of faith without works.
It leaves me asking what do I do for the Lord? I have a degree in Christian studies/theology, but I have a desk job. I spend most of my day getting aggravated with the piles of work, the emails constantly popping up, and all the other pleasures of living in a cubicle eight hours a day (nine if you count the fact that I normally eat lunch at my desk). It's hard to think what can I do for Christ under the pressure of time lines and answering status requests. And when the pressure gets to much, I reduce myself to whining, grumbling and venting to anyone within earshot, hardly the picture of a quiet and gentle spirit.
But the busyness of life isn't an excuse. Jesus called, and Peter dropped his nets and followed. I wish I could have even half of that kind of faith.
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